October 17, 2000 ~ Manual Labor

I guess I am a little depressed this evening. I am normally such a highly productive person; I am always getting something done. My heart is crying out that I want to write, to read, to learn, but I am utterly drained.

Everything aches. I am sore and extremely dirty. Slightly sun burnt. I smell bad. My eyes burn and don't want to stay open. My scalp itches. My arms feel like they are going to fall off, and my feet hurt. I have a headache. And yes, all of this relates to the fact that, for this week, I am a janitor and a garbage woman (see yesterday's entry for an explanation). I am thankful, though, that I did manage to make it through another day without getting stung! Jedi powers are still at full strength.

Because of it all, though, all I want to do is curl up in bed. Either that or do something completely mindless. I am so exhausted. I am normally very motivated, but all day working really hard is just killing it all. I wonder how some people are able to live their entire lives doing this sort of work every day. How do they ever get anything other than their work done?

I think everyone should spend one week as a garbage person. We would probably be a heck of a lot less wasteful, and more clean. We'd also be a bit more compassionate, methinks.

Some good things did happen, today, though! I was able to book the fellowship hall for our wedding on the day we wanted. Now we just need to iron out the details. I also landed a short job for Saturday that pays ten dollars an hour, no tax. Heh. That's always nice. My grandmother sent me a package that had in it all of my old poetry that I had forgotten that I had written. I got a letter from my friend Suzanne, and she hasn't written in a long time! It also seems that there is a chance that she'll be able to come to my wedding. On top of all that, Morgan is being really sweet. He knows that I am working really hard all day, so he's extra sweet in the evenings.

I think I'm going to go to bed. I'm disappointed, because I planned to catch up on so much this week. Oh well.

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